Susan Eileen
Bio
If you like what you see here, please find me on Amazon. I have two published books under the name of Susan Eileen. I am currently working on a selection of short stories and poems. My two published books are related to sobriety.
Stories (80/0)
Atonement
On the longest day of the year, a town revives an ancient solstice ritual and discovers its unexpected power. The media saturation around the eclipse was total. The news warned of driving during the eclipse. Local residents looking to make some extra cash were renting out their houses to strangers as people were traveling to see the eclipse that featured the diamond ring during totality. Billed as a once in a lifetime event, t-shirts commemorating the event were everywhere. Towns and villages had arranged for mass viewings in their town square, and the news proclaimed that in years gone by, viewers could get very emotional, even spiritual during an eclipse.
By Susan Eileen 4 days ago in Fiction
Surviving A Dark Night of the Soul
Credit: Excerpt from my book, The Dictionary of Missing Time Dark Night of the Soul Definition The “dark night of the soul” is a term that goes back a long time. It is a term used to describe what one could call a collapse of a perceived meaning in life…an eruption into your life of a deep sense of meaninglessness. The inner state in some cases is very close to what is conventionally called depression.
By Susan Eileen 8 days ago in Confessions
A Broken Mirror
The mirror showed a reflection that wasn’t my own. I fell asleep swiftly the previous night after a taxing day with my ex-boyfriend. I had been increasingly frustrated with trying to determine his intentions with me. The longer I pondered the question, the more I questioned whether I was genuinely interested in the man at all anymore. The lustre of this new relationship has faded quickly, as increasingly disturbing details of his personality emerge.
By Susan Eileen about a year ago in Horror
That First Drink Would Be My Downfall
The Cellar in Northfield The cellar in my childhood was dark and damp, but for some reason we were encouraged to hang out down there. While I was growing up my mother routinely sent us into the cellar when tornado warnings came on the television. The cellar was the safest place to be during a tornado, she said. I think most of the time, she just wanted us to get a break from her children and watch her soaps in peace.
By Susan Eileen about a year ago in Confessions
Our New Normal
Many of us have had far too much to process in recent years. We've had the Covid Pandemic, hyperinflation, hostile work environments, mass shootings, and a ridiculously toxic dating scene. We all have our crosses to bear, our traumatic childhoods, addiction issues, and a skyrocketing divorce rate, but when will we come together again to be a community? Is the sense of community dead in 2023?
By Susan Eileen about a year ago in Humans
Be Careful with Whom you Make your Alliances
Years ago when I was starting my education career at the local career center, my boss gave me very sage advice that I did not heed. The advice was, be careful with whom you make your alliances. Unfortunately, I dismissed this advice and decided to stick with friends from high school, who - and it took me far too long to realize this - I had truly had nothing in common with. If you associate out with addicts, you will eventually become an addict, if you associate with people who don't know how to manage their money, eventually you won't be able to either, and if you associate with people are deeply committed to staying stuck in a rut, you'll get stuck in their rut too. Negativity and hopelessness is just as contagious as positivity and optimism; pick your partners and friends wisely.
By Susan Eileen about a year ago in Humans
Let's Celebrate my Three Year Soberversary
On December 9th, 2019, I took my last sip of alcohol. My drinking had progressed significantly in a very short period of time. I don't know exactly when I crossed that line, but once it is crossed it can't be reversed - at least not for me. I became a 24/7 drinker. Before you think it can't happen to you, trust me it can. My drinking progressed to the point that if woke up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom, I would open a beer. It progressed to the point that the obsession started before I even woke up. I would have a beer waiting for me on my bedside table when I woke up. My liver was swollen. I was having seizures. I was in a rotation of psych wards, court appointments, and emergency room visits. If I can offer any advice, it is not to wait until it gets to this point. Don't be an "at-leaster." Don't say, "well at least I'm not a felon," "at least I don't have five OVI's." Before you know it, it can happen to you.
By Susan Eileen 2 years ago in Confessions
Never Underestimate a Cycle Breaker
I've been committed to breaking the cycle of generational trauma for sometime now. I came from a severely dysfunctional home. My mother was married to a narcisscist who ruined her life. I apparently keep getting into relationships where men ruin my life. My ex was so abusive that it drove me to a drinking problem. I fall in love with potential. I fall in love with the future of what I want them to be. I disregard the red flags. And because of that, I self-destruct.
By Susan Eileen 2 years ago in Confessions
Frugal Fun Galore on the Northern Shore - Part 2
This has been the best year of my life hands down. I'm out on the dating scene and I've been enjoying myself immensely. I decided to get on TikTok to promote my upcoming book about breaking the chains to alcohol addiction. The response has been overwhelming. I'm sober, not boring.
By Susan Eileen 2 years ago in Wander
Poverty Charges Interest
Poverty, like wealth, also charges interest. Don't have money for tires now? Pay for a tow truck and lost time from work later. Don't have time or insurance for a dental cleaning? Pay for dentures later. Don't have the money for a vacation? Pay for a nervous breakdown later. Negative momentum in the wrong direction is still momemtum. In our current economy, you can go up or down, but staying afloat with a middle-class job is as scarce as a unicorn these days. What we've got now is modern-day corporate slavery.
By Susan Eileen 2 years ago in Humans
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