cinnamon girl
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"For the ones that long for love and understanding. For the ones who love from afar. For those who live for literature, poetry and journaling all their thoughts and emotions are down because no one else would understand."
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I don't know what to feel.
I'm just so tired of feeling a connection with someone and losing it in such a short amount of time. It's like I like to be treated poorly somehow. Maybe it's what they say. My lack of affection when I was a kid from my mother. I still feel a bit weird towards my mother because she shows no care for me whatsoever even though I have been in another country for years now, but she cares so much about my brother who only causes trouble. I've read somewhere that usually, mothers will focus all their energy on that son who clearly needs help because he just can't help himself. and not me because I clearly can take care of myself, I have done so much by myself so far, so what is the point of her even being worried, also the fewer times I had a breakdown with my mom she only blamed and kept on saying "I told you so" instead of being supportive. That messed me up. But I try not to think of it that way. I usually ignore it. I sometimes don't even remember I have a family. Because I'm living my life. I'm the only one who cares enough to go back home to show that I'm okay. But sometimes I feel like what is the point when nobody does that for me. Is it fair that because I'm the one away I need to be the one always visiting. I don't think so. Should I just use that money and go somewhere else. Maybe I should. Never show up again.
By cinnamon girlabout a month ago in Journal
