That Boy, Online

A boy said hi to me online this morning!

My insomnia kicked into high gear overnight

I wasn’t sleeping, I was just laying there

Thoughts of being ‘I’ forever looped inside

Fear of a ‘We’ never forming, never coming

But then it came, ‘Hey’ from a boy … a man

Tall, handsome, gentle and kind with words

Am I actually awake? Or is the dream most cruel?

This is an actual, honest to goodness … nice guy

We chat long into the night, actually the morning

Here’s the thing that proves time again, a deal breaker

"I’m transgender", I say … and wait, wait for the unmatch

But this time … this boy that I find very attractive

Says the most unexpected, the never before said

‘Not a problem, doesn’t change anything’ I … smile!

He says I’m pretty, says I’m kind, he is so nice

Likes my openness, appreciates my honesty, this boy

We talk all night, into the morning, now sleep is unwanted

Lay down facing my phone, legs wiggle above me happily

Talking of meeting, of plans to spend time, to know each other

I do not sleep, this feeling new to me, desire to talk for hours

Almost lost in disbelief, a boy likes me, I ‘made his night’

Mournfully the new sun rises, it is time to say goodbye

For now while in different hemispheres, talk again soon

A girl giddy with building excitement, for a time of meeting

I still cannot believe, still do not see what he does in me

But this morning I could not sleep, and a boy said hi, online