You Kissed Me At The Red Light.

You wore those blue sweatpants,

With the hole in the thigh.

I couldn't quite make contact

But you had this look in your eye.

Or maybe it was me,

For I wanted you so bad.

You knew how much I wanted,

But we pretend like it is nothing.

O

I was crushing.

Your hand "accidentally" touched my leg

And you weren't quick to move it.

The light turns red;

And all I feel is dread.

It's one of those lights that stay red forever.

Or at least that's how it felt with you.

We were going to the skate park like usual,

But the look on your face, it said,

"let's go somewhere beautiful"

Or maybe that's what I wanted,

Aside from everything else on my mind.

Your hand on my thigh

And I refrain from flinching

When you ease on over to my side.

I want to soak the moment in

But my mind won't let me hold it.

You kiss me on the cheek

And my body fills up with fear.

I don't know why fear.

Fear had no reason to be there.

The light was still red as we looked to each other.

"was that okay?"

You said to me.

I had to refrain from laughing.

"i think so. but what about your girlfriend?"

"it's open...."

"is it really?"

He insisted;

Then he kissed me again.

This time my eyes closed

And it felt like the world had disappeared.

We both got so into it

And it was a bit embarrassing

When the car behind us had to honk at us.

I opened my eyes to see the light green

And you drove off into the next scene.

Now at the skate park,

We both don't get out the car.

The tension in the air is so thick

But I'm just not so sure

If you should get this.

I ended up choking

And spitting on it.

Your lips bit themselves in pleasure.

I made sure not to finish

Cause I needed to remind you I'm a treasure.

Flashing red lights and a ping of terror;

You tell me not to worry

But I'm meant to be valedictorian.

"what's wrong with me

and what the f**k?"

I say to myself as we roll down our tinted windows.

The officers are harmless,

And remind us to stay safe.

He told us to watch out for dangerous motorcycle folks.

"and please cover up. go home and use a condom."

He saluted us and they went about their way.

It did ruin the moment but not so much the day.

We took his advice and went home.

He told his girlfriend that very night

And she didn't take it well.

I admired that he didn't keep it from her,

But of course I'd be mad as hell too.

Poor girl.

I wanted to comfort her

But how does one do that?

I made sure to stay out of it and

I'm glad you didn't send her my way.

But eventually I did reach out,

And I told her the truth.

"babes, i really didn't know and he told me it was cool."

"do you think that he likes you?"

"uhhhh"

"he never kisses me anymore. just asks for head and s*x."

"whoa."

You were a crush of mine

But now I knew to stay away.

O how I hate those games you play.

So now we don't speak,

But I do think about that moment

Right before the light turned green.

The way it peaked through my lids,

And the gentle touch of your lip on mine.

It was so divine,

But ultimately too good to be true.

Most of the time I laugh,

And I wish I could say I didn't miss you.