I told myself I wouldn't mess it up
No more fuck ups
No more mistakes
No more getting it wrong.
No more...
I would keep it simple--
Don't say it
"Stupid"
Duh
It really was that simple
The ego likes to complicate
Was I really the best one for the job?
I guess at one point
But that point has come and gone
Now I'm shot back to the 3d
Not just in the heart
But the guts too
Going from being chosen to being dumped
Because you didn't trust
Enough
So now what?
That was no regular journey
I can't undo it
I'm so lost
It was supposed to be magic
It was supposed to be heaven
Not this
Not hell
The worst part is that I chose this
Well the ego did
You know what they say
No guts no glory
Ego doesn't like that
Ego doesn't like change
It wants to stay small, secure
Alive is all it's after.
But now I'm here, going from square 99
Back to square 1.
or maybe even ground zero.
How do I get back on the saddle?
Where even is my horse?
Where is the road?
Where I am?
What am I?
Who am I?
sometimes I have to pinch myself to see if I am really alive
I gotta get back up
Somehow someway
I may find the way again
Until then
Farewell my friend
I wish I could erase the pain
And start all over again
Next time I would keep it simple,
Sweetie.
That's better.
About the Creator
Mkat
...on the spiritual path...
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