Dreams

Ever since a small child I'd close my eyes and dream so vividly.

Sometimes I dream of love; Roll over and thank God it's still You.

Sometimes I travel to new places, out of this dimension, open terrain and less buildings or the familiar scenery.

I dream of sadness, never are the dreams complete. I awake heart broken in sorrow, as if I just sat front row at a funeral. Mind racing to remember, scribbling wilding into my bedside journal, holding on to each and every clue.

I dream of monsters; no goblin or ghoul has been scarier than the things man can do. I awake heart pounding, staring into the darkness of my room. Leaning over to check my wife's breathing, fearlessly rushing to check my children, my windows, my doors! Scrabbling to push away images from my mind, I pray! I close my eyes and once again I'm swept away. Falling sensations tug me down to bed, till I'm flying through orbs of light in my head.

Sometimes I dream I'm with you. I can hear your tears falling from your eyes in the darkness. I feel your loneliness, brokenness, your despair. I awake overcome with grief reaching for my phone to tell you better days await, just hold on!

Sometimes I dream your back, your different this time, no more pain riddling your body. We talk and laugh endlessly. You encourage me to keep dreaming and dream big! You say it's time for you to go, the alarm ringing in the distance, I feel me coming back to body with the annoying urge to pee! By now the face will fade, but the voice remains. "When will you come back", I think so hard, I feel the sunrise migraine forming. Your words now distant; "Wait No", I scream aloud talking in my sleep, "Stay with me ".

Sometimes I'm already awake, daydreaming, simply staring off into the abyss. I feel a name on my heart, a feeling I can't describe but I can't put it aside. I must call you, or text to see how you feel, send you joke to know that you laughed today, remind you that Love is real.

The night comes early, I'm excited to dream, my magic is most powerful in my sleep, floating through air or water I can never tell. My body welcomes the rest, like a hug of hibernation, I know you mean me well. I'm simply overthinking, had something sweet to late, or I'm subconsciously fighting my inner demons I keep hidden away.

Tomorrow comes and I walk through our world and recognize your face. I truly hate to stare but I just can't let it go, I know you.

Yes, I've seen you.

Once before in dream I saved you, I helped you, I was your listening hear, reminded you to have no fear. I wish to know your name, but to avoid a dramatic scene I simply say, "have a nice day"!

Crazy they'll call me.

One day you won't, even now some don't, most can only utter " wow, how did you know"?

I know so much, and nothing at all. Infact I just dream and much like movie screen, certain images stay engraved in my sight. Did I will it be so? Did I live this before? Maybe just a glimpse into the future, like an answerless riddle.

Exhaustion has graced my temple again; my eyes grow heavy, my spirit flying, floating, falling into another Dream.