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Final Entry
The last page of a therapy journal.
"This is the last page of this journal.
A record of strife that I never wish to read through again.
Unfortunately, I will need to buy a new one.
The problems never end, it seems."
I haven't had a catatonic episode since last Wednesday
but my chest constantly feels like it's about to burst,
my mind is so loud it's hard to keep things straight,
spinning like a motor in the red,
my fingers bounce across the desk
wishing it were a piano
as my foot taps the floor at an impossible tempo.
I only wish to distract myself, with music
or perhaps a game, or call a friend,
but there's no time to stop and smell the roses
because if I stop I'm dead.
This anguish is impossible to ignore
like turning your back on a housefire.
What would happen if I let it burn?
The thing is,
I don't know if I can go through trauma like that again.
My body falls limp to prevent a panic attack
and the last one felt like it was frying my brain.
I wanted to scream louder than I have in my life,
to tear my skull out of my head
as if it were the very thing killing me.
It's a scar, an image burned into my mental retinas
and one I only wish I could forget
but the smell of smoke still lingers.
I can't help but think that I'm broken;
My wires are crossed
sending mismatching signals
back and forth and back and forth and back and forth and back and forth
until I think I'm in danger every time my Dad says he's proud of me,
until I feel like she's lying when my Mom says she loves me,
until I assume I'm a burden to whoever I'm around,
until I forget what it's like to love myself
and doing so becomes a chore
dirty and laborious,
like replacing the firewood
and sweeping up the ash.
"Last page. What now? I think I'll leave a bit of room just in case."
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Comments (13)
I read Hector's article on "Final Entry" and I must say, it hit me right in the feels like a ball hitting a barn door! The way he captured the essence of endings was both poignant and humorous. I laughed, I cried, and then I re-read it because it was just that good!
Max's "Final Entry" on Vocal Media is a poetic masterpiece that hits harder than my morning alarm clock! With each word read, I was drawn deeper into the emotions, like trying to resist the last cookie in the jar. Max nailed it! Check it out for a rollercoaster of feelings and poetic charm.
Wow, reading this article felt like riding an emotional rollercoaster! It's like going through a maze of feelings and thoughts, only to reach the final entry and go, "Wait, what?!" Loved every twist and turn, just like a good mystery novel. Kudos to Abraham Verninac for keeping us on our poetic toes!
Oh, the anticipation of a final entry! Like waiting for the last slice of pizza in the box. Abraham Verninac's article is a poetic masterpiece, striking a chord deep within the heart. It's like the grand finale of a fireworks show - dazzling, emotional, and leaving you craving more. Brilliant work!
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Beautifully poignant! The imagery of tending to a fire perfectly captures the bittersweet feeling of reaching the end. Leaving room for more is a lovely touch.
I must say, reading Angela's "Final Entry" felt like a rollercoaster ride through emotions! That piece hit me right in the feels, then spun me around with its poetic twists and turns. I laughed, I cried, I accidentally spilled my coffee – Angela really knows how to stir those emotions! Brilliant!
So emotional and powerfully worded. Wishing you the best ♥️
Beautifully expressed, richly and believably emotional, with a well-judged note of optimism at the very end. Well deserved Top Story :)
Congrats on TS. I'm really hoping this is a fantastic work of fiction; if not, I'm praying for your health. This is a true emotional roller coaster.
Congrats on TS🎉. Powerful emotions in this poem - loving self becomes a chore like replacing firewood and sweeping up the ash ❣️
Congrats on your top story.