I wanna sing to you
I wanna be your best voice
All the cards and cords are tired and tied
Stretched and unbalanced and wired/weird
I wanna be there for you
But you’re out of my reach
Even as you’re standing before me
I feel the dissonance rising
In my eyes, I wanna be what you need
You’re my daughter, in my heart
Marcy, I love you as my blood
A deep and ancient bond
I don’t have my voice anymore
But you must see how I feel
I wanna sing to you
I wanna be your best voice
All the cards and cords are tired and tied
Stretched and unbalanced and wired/weird
I see your grace in my old self
And now you sing for me
Breaking past all the barriers
A booming cataclysm
Like a new catharsis that rips & heals
I almost always get it wrong
But not with you
My darling daughter
One day I’ll break the dissociation
Dissonance
And blow your black clouds away.
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Author note: I’m struggling to cope with being away from my family and kids as I spent most of this holiday in the hospital. My third baby, a boy named David, is due March 20th. We had found out he had Spina Bifida And I had a surgery to repair his lesion. The surgery was a success and I was able to come home within a week. Unfortunately, I was only able to stay at home for less than two weeks as my water broke on Christmas Eve. They are trying to keep him from being born premature. Now, I will be here at the hospital until he is born(6-7 weeks). I am stressed and anxious as I miss my family and my kids very much. I wrote this to help me cope.
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Melissa Ingoldsby
I am a published author on Patheos,
I am Bexley by Resurgence Novels
The Half Paper Moon on Golden Storyline Books for Kindle.
My novella The Job and Atonement will be published this year by JMS Books
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Comments (8)
Sending positive vibes & virtual hugs!!!💕❤️❤️
Prayers & blessings.
Excellent poem Melissa, But I’m so sad to hear you are back in the Hospital. Hoping things work out for the best and you are distracting yourself much ! thinking of you..I’m sorry I’ve missed so many of your pieces.. Anyhow, best wishes and positive vibes sent your way my friend!!
Wishing you the best! I loved watching Adventure Time with my kids. Very deep and meaningful art hidden in a kids show, as I covered in my essay "Percy Shelly and Bad Jubies". It's a connection I appreciate here. Many blessings and much love!
Omgggg! I'm so sorry Merly! I didn't know! The last we had a chat, you were recovering. I'm so sorry, I should have reached out but I was afraid I'd be annoying you if I kept texting 🥺 I'm so sorry you have to be in the hospital for almost 2 months until he is born. I remember you said they would induce you only only March 14. Gosh I really hope you're doing okay 😭😭😭😭 Sending you and your baby lots of prayers, love and hugs 🥺❤️
I can't even imagine the strength it takes to endure this situation, and your writing is a poignant outlet for those emotions. Wishing you strength and hoping for brighter days ahead. I will keep you and yours in my prayers Warm hugs!! ❤❤
A beautiful and moving piece Melissa! Sending all our thoughts and love to you and yours!
Felt this...and was a nice reminder of the Ice King. Sending you hope and love, Melissa and will keep you and yours in my prayers.