My story with a Beggar

One night I left from a meal and there was a homeless man asking people for money outside of our Center and I said to him I have some sandwiches, I could give to you and he said I don't want your sandwiches. I walked away thinking that this guy doesn't want my food , all he wants his money he's probably not even hungry or he's gonna use the money on drugs or alcohol.

There's something like that and I caught myself in my thoughts and I said the only person who can answer, why he doesn't want my food is he himself so I walked back to him and I was a little annoyed and I said to him why don't you want my food man and he walked to his shopping cart he took out a bag and he said I already have food .

He said if I was to take your food in addition to the food that I have there's no way I would be able to eat all of it and some of it would get thrown away and he said me living the life, that I live I will never throw away food

I said thank you to him for not just teaching me something about himself but teaching me a lot about myself and I walked away with a different recognition of who it is that I'm not necessarily today but what it is that I really want to be in the Society teaches us to look at ourselves a lot but not really look for ourselves you just think about how much time you spent in front of a mirror, how much time you spent in terms of the care of your physical your external to fit into boxes.

That people place you in that you might not even know you're in but you're trying to fit into somebody else's standard of who you're supposed to be, where you have people who are definitely making the world a much dirtier place and then you have people who can even identify that that's a problem .

That you shouldn't be throwing garbage on the ground but there's not that many people who are actually going out of their way to still pick it up and make it much cleaner and I think where we transition into that third place that says that it's not just enough to say that something that is not good .

Is not good because you can say that that's wrong but what are you doing that's right what are you doing to add something that's just positive I think we get scared sometimes because we fit into this very formulaic pattern of what it means to be successful our sense of identity is tied to things that we possess and things that we own and our sense of fulfillment is based off of things that come from outside of us rather than inside of us.

Nobody's telling us that we need to be honest, we need to be compassionate, we need to be merciful, we need to be just we need to be loving, we need to be generous, but they're telling us that our sense of Worth is based off of what it is that we drive and how big of that thing they must be.

So you'll learn how to be a doctor you'll learn how to be a lawyer, you'll learn how engineer, you'll learn how to be an artist and activist and academic as you're learning how to be a worker most of us aren't really learning.

How to be thinkers we're not engaged in spaces where we're understanding, why do we love what, we love or why do. we hate what, we hate derp ,why do we desire the things that, we desire and your story is not your story when you force yourself to become someone else's story, you are where you're coming from and you are where it is.

That you're going to the only person you need to compare yourself today to is the person, you were yesterday if you want to have a competition with anybody and make it between those two people you'll find yourself in this space ,where the person you are today is no longer afraid to meet the person that you can become tomorrow.

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