Suze Kay

Joined June 2021

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Pastry chef by day, insomniac writer by night.

Find here: stories that creep up on you, poems to stumble over, and the weird words I hold them in.

Or, let me catch you at www.suzekay.com

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a yung pilgrim in London. Runner-up in Travel Snaps Challenge.
I say it often, to myself and my friends: wherever you go, there you are. I mean it in the way that your damage is you, your choices follow you from within, and a new place cannot heal an open wound. London, whose cobblestoned streets I traversed in my mother's red Hunter wellies, did not challenge this platitude in the two summer months I lived there. I arrived sad and left the same. But wasn't it a wondrous, different place to feel the same things, and pursue the same distractions?
By Suze Kayabout a month ago in Wander
Hunting Men. Top Story - May 2024.
There were three reasons to play Manhunt and none of them were winning. The first was sometimes, when the whole neighborhood played and not just my cousins, if the right kid was on my team, I got to practice kissing. The right kid changed all the time and I wanted to change, too. When he played basketball, I wore high tops. If he skateboarded on the cul-de-sac, I clipped a chain on my wallet. It jangled while we ran, but that was good: it made him want to keep me still.
By Suze Kayabout a month ago in Fiction
Channeling
Often, I beg: Open me. Please. Fill the wound with something I can use Deliver me words like a sunbeam gilding dust. // The words come too much, not enough. I can't
By Suze Kay2 months ago in Poets
Watching the Ground
Even as I wish for paper glasses, I hedge. I Could take it or Leave it, I think. I can trust the moon to Inch around again. It will
By Suze Kay2 months ago in Poets
Women Who Stay, 36 (Epilogue). Top Story - June 2024.
Chapter 1 ... Chapter 35 ______________ Money, I found, made my fear of failure easier to live with. I bought an apartment. I remodeled a bedroom into a writing studio. And slowly, like a spoonful of honey, the money eased my frustration with feeling, once again, like a larger, better story had crossed my path. If life kept feeling like this, I could live with it.
By Suze Kay2 months ago in Chapters
Women Who Stay, 35
Chapter 1 ... Chapter 34 ______________ The Janie I created was a second-wave feminist idol, committed to creating the life she wanted. She fought tooth and nail to get it. She comforted herself with what she could -- children, objects, the picture of a perfect life. She accepted her husband as a gay man and knew nothing about what he did in the shadows of their basement. What happened to her was a tragedy. Her story was a woman's scream of warning: nothing hurts you like what you love.
By Suze Kay2 months ago in Chapters
Women Who Stay, Chapter 34
Chapter 1 ... Chapter 33 ______________ With dawning horror, I realized there was no one left to talk with. Or rather, somehow worse: I could talk about Janie forever -- with her children, with her acquaintances, even with her if she were still alive -- and it wouldn't help me write. Because I was stuck at a crossroads.
By Suze Kay2 months ago in Chapters
Women Who Stay, 33
Chapter 1 ... Chapter 32 ______________ Years ago, I learned about the 'Doorknob Phenomenon' from a doctor I interviewed.
By Suze Kay2 months ago in Chapters
Women Who Stay, 32
Chapter 1 ... Chapter 31 ______________ "I was in the car with Mommy, driving somewhere, and she was angry. She kept calling someone on her car phone and yelling. Finally, we parked. I was scared, crying. I wanted a... I don't know, a snack, maybe? But she left me in the car. It felt like she was gone forever. When she came back, we started driving again. Like nothing happened. Finally, when we were back in Somerset, she took me to the diner. Let me get a milkshake. And then she told me:
By Suze Kay2 months ago in Chapters
Women Who Stay, 31
Chapter 1 ... Chapter 30 ______________ When I completed my indexing and still hadn't heard from Gordon, it was time to bait my trap. I texted him.
By Suze Kay2 months ago in Chapters
Women Who Stay, 30
Chapter 1 ... Chapter 29 ______________ "Mom moved out in '92. She took Gordon, who was just a baby, and she tried to take me too, but I refused to go. I didn't want to be alone with her. I wanted to stay with Dad, and I wanted to stay at the Farm."
By Suze Kay3 months ago in Chapters
Women Who Stay, 29
Chapter 1 ... Chapter 28 ______________ In some ways, Annabelle's childhood was straight out of a fairytale. Her father happily bought her anything she asked for -- every book, every piece of clothing, every possible accouterment for any half-baked hobby. She rambled over lush green grounds. Her home was filled with treasure, by some definition of the word.
By Suze Kay3 months ago in Chapters

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