Strong Tower
a album by 'Kutless' with significance to my journey
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This piece is written for Angela Hepworth's Unofficial Challenge! (link to challenge below story)
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I was a highly repressed and closeted trans woman of seventeen years old when my dad died. After a two year struggle with cancer, my dad died in July during my final year of school. Because apparently life wasn’t hard enough as a person that felt trapped and unsure of how to explain themselves to the highly conservative school and church they attended. That was my final year of school, spent realising that We Fall Down.
A year and a half later I still struggled with so much of life, but then I stumbled upon an album in a christian book shop’s CD section. I took a bit of a gamble, I’d never heard this band before, but the album title caught my eye … ‘Strong Tower’ by Kutless. I remember thinking I could use that now.
The impact of that album and particularly the title track on my life are hard to describe. It gave me hope … hope that a life after dad was something I could get through. I didn’t have All The Words at the time still to fully understand and embrace who I really was, that would take almost another two decades … but when I listed to that album I felt for the first time in a while, God Draw Me Close and find a safe place in his Arms Of Love to wait until I was ready to accept myself.
This album has helped me through so much, I find it brings a deep calm. Fast-forwarding to late 2022 and there was that moment … something inside said you are Ready For You and the time came. I finally pushed through all the repression, all the self-hate and fear, all the rhetoric I’d heard throughout my life and I guess finally was able to Take Me In and finally understood something that took far too long ...
God doesn’t care that I’m trans, God still loves me so much that Jesus Lord Of Heaven was sent to take my place on that cross … me for who I am, no if or buts, scripture makes it clear All Who Are Thirsty can drink the water of life and be saved.
So then began a journey of finding who I was now, and I can tell you first hand, Finding Who We Are is no easy task when you are going up against 30+ years of being told that it’s wrong and sinful to be who you are. Throughout that time I kept coming back to this special album, a rock that I came to rely on all the time, and these lyrics washed over me:
In the middle of my darkness
In the midst of all my fear
You're my refuge and my hope
When the storm of life is raging
And the thunder's all I hear
You speak softly to my soul
- "Strong Tower" by Kutless
I had come through that darkness and that storm and found myself hearing Word of God Speak to me as I Lift My Eyes once again, no longer ashamed of who I am and knowing that I am a loved and cared for child of God and that while there is still pain in this life Better Is One Day that will come. I don’t know if I would have made it through that time of reconciling my faith with accepting who I am if not for this album, my Strong Tower.
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The Challenge: Why is this album of song important to you?
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About the Creator
Savannah K. Wilson
She/Her | Australian 🏳️⚧️ Author
Queer lady that's all class with a touch of sass! (or maybe the reverse!)
Focusing lately on short stories and poetry drawn from life experience.
Debut novel The Knights of Avalon
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Comments (7)
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Thank you for sharing your heartfelt story. Love the song. It had been a while since I listened to it. (Listening to it as I type.) How devastating to have lost your father at such a crucial time in your life. (((Hugs))) One of my criticisms of many within the Christian community is a lack of tolerance for anyone who is different, and I am so sorry you had to face that. This was clearly NOT what Christ promoted. God did not make a mistake when he formed you just as you are. You are fearfully and wonderfully made in your perfect individualism. Stay strong, S.K.!
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Your story captivated me. I am so glad you know Jesus loves you just as you are. Thanks for sharing God bless.
Excellent insight into the album and thanks for sharing your life with us. My last interview was with local trans singer , though I was unaware she was trans until we started to chat and she sent me her new EP on a guitar shaped USB stick. her name is Jade Mia Broadhead
ugh so fucking moving. tysm for sharing. you and your vulnerability are so beautiful. ty ❤️
S.K., this was such a powerfully vulnerable and touching piece. I’m so happy this album helped you through such a hard time in your life, navigating the loss of a parent while also navigating your gender identity in a conservative environment. It’s so beautiful that you were able to find balance and acceptance in the middle. I loved the song Strong Tower, I still have yet to listen to the rest of the album but I’ll definitely get to it! Loved this ♥️