Sidelined
waiting to meet you again for the first time
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How can I begin to tell you this?
What I’m not allowed to say aloud
Your birthday is here once again
Yet I am frozen with uncertainty
How should I address a gift to you?
Wishing not to lie to you or to me
In filling the card, the dreaded 'From'
So I don't, I close the cart and weep
My love and joy whenever with you
The realest and only time authentic
So very long there was nothing else
Just the bandage you could provide
Only now it seems i’m almost gone
Not your fault, and not your choice
Even I feel sidelined from decisions
Our clan now divided by unjust fear
How could this be worse than me being
… Not
Those years 'Uncle Bear’ was there
That’s me no longer, but I'm still here
Only the first part of before is gone
You only knew a version, a mask,
Now I wish to introduce your Auntie'
Who am I? So many names to choose
For you to pick, for me to proudly use
When the times comes and I can return
The name you bestow will be special
Just as you have and will always be to me
My heart you stole from your first breath
In my sight, from that moment I was yours
I only wish that we say 'hello', very soon
To meet in a way, for the very first time again
Now this shell is broken and gone, unlike me
The auntie who you met without meeting
Still here for you, the same just newly named
Waiting with love for them to tell you of me
Until you are told, this is now me. This is me
Sidelined ... Waiting ...
With love
About the Creator
S.K. Wilson
She/Her | Australian 🏳️⚧️ Author
A lady that's all class with a touch of sass! Focusing lately on short stories and poetry drawn from life experience.
Debut novel The Knights of Avalon out now! (Book II Coming soon!)
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