You were my lover
I was your toy
I know that now
After all the nights I spent contemplating
The moments I spent in confusion
In an attempt to decide
If I meant anything
To you.
You ripped me out of my world
Showed me yours
I fell in love with the sounds and colors
And you.
It was your world
And I was just a plaything
Entertainment for you
But you knew.
You knew that I loved you.
And you couldn’t care.
I know that now.
You still call me
And I let my delusional mind think
That it was more than it was.
The times I spent with you
Are the places that are filled with giggles and weed and late night drives
Tinged with black.
I let my selective memory
Choose.
I still love you
I always will
For changing my life forever.
It was ok that I was your toy.
But you can be mine now.
About the Creator
Sara
Don’t look for love.
Be love.
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Letter to our Queer & Trans Youth
Hey, you. I thought I’d start this letter by telling you a little about myself, just so you know who you’re dealing with. I’m an emotional dad, father to three amazing kids who we met through the foster care system, and whose presence in our lives has really transformed my sense of responsibility to the communities that surround us. The connections we’ve made with one another, with our extended families, and with the communities where we live and look for belonging have catapulted us into this whirlwind of emotional tumult which, while not easy by any stretch of the measure, has also been remarkably healing. I realize ours is really only a one-sided chosen family, since our kids didn’t get to choose to live here, but I’d like to think that they did choose to let us love them, which allowed them to grow to love us. And I think that’s where I want to go with this letter- to a place where you can find belonging and healing- even if the pathway there may be peppered with some emotional tumult.
By F Cade Swansona day ago in Pride
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