I knew as the weather got warmer
That we would eventually be no longer.
I tried not to care
But sometimes I cried
Because I felt it wasn’t fair.
The best human I had ever known,
And then they were just gone as quickly as they’d appeared.
The birds were chirping
And I swear our souls were merging.
I tried not to fall
But sometimes I fell so deep.
Sometimes it felt like I was asleep
And our time together was the best dream I’d ever known.
I was terrified of the warmth
And at first I did nothing but reject it.
But she was so perfect
And I was only hurting myself.
I don’t know what did it
But the way her kisses had me melting.
And when the pond started thawing
I knew that our time was drawing to an end.
I knew that eventually we would have to end.
I hated the ice
But you adored it.
I was barely getting by
Meanwhile,
It was your favorite time of the year.
I remember the feeling of your voice in my ear
And the way I hated to love it.
I don’t think I could use that word with you
But I know that what we had was so beautiful.
Holding your hands for the first time was such a special moment.
It was after the pond had first frozen.
Your eyes held this beautiful golden hue
And I felt like such a fool for falling.
I felt like such a fool for wanting you.
You proved to be trouble in the end,
Even though you never did anything wrong.
I wish we didn’t last so long
So I didn’t have to feel so torn when things ended.
Remember when you got offended
When I told you your makeup wasn’t well-blended.
I still think of the face you made when you were thinking.
I still wonder how one human could seem so perfect.
Even with all the heartache in the end,
I do believe everything was worth it.
It is true what people say,
How it’s better to have loved than not at all.
She was so hot and fiery,
It’s a wonder how the ice never melted early.
So funny and so charming,
And her wit is still unmatched.
And don’t get me started on her laugh;
Oh so beautiful.
Oh how harmonious.
I don’t know much
But I knew I was in love with her.
One time she left me with my thoughts
And I couldn’t help but to think
What it would be like to have tots with her.
I couldn’t help but to leave in tears.
It hadn’t even been a whole year
But it felt like a lifetime.
I am not one to whine
But it’s hard to truly find the words that accurately express
How I felt with her;
And what it felt like when she left me.
No, I’m not angry.
But I am just a little at myself,
For loving her as hard as I did;
To get so attached to her flesh?
I feel so silly.
I feel so dumb.
An excuse that I make is I was young,
But I was O so dumb and in love.
O so dumb and naive
To think that neither of us would have to leave.
I knew it,
But I tried to ignore it.
I could feel before it happened
Just how devastating it would feel when it did.
I wish I could say that it’s tragic
But really I’m more glad for the magic.
I wonder if you think of me
The way I think of you.
I wonder if your reality
Has changed so dramatically
The way mine has because of you.
About the Creator
Ari Asha Love
Been writing all my life but the question is whether or not I truly take it seriously.
You can find me on most social media platforms as afroqueergod :)
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