(Sub)conscious Conversations

I’m trapped, I’m stuck here in this hell

Your beliefs created this victim veil

I refuse to believe that can be true

You are entitled to your point of view

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silence ensues

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Why would I have chosen such hardship and strife?

You didn’t know your thoughts are creating your life

Was I thinking so much about suffering and pain?

Well you certainly weren’t focused on what you want to gain

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more silence

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But there was a time when I did believe

And my imagination would conceive

My life lived in joy - rich and free

With only love surrounding me

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so why isn’t that what I see?

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You only see what you deeply believe

Not what your imagination can conceive

And you believe in pain and fear

You believe in suffering year after year

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it’s why you cry so many tears

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But how can I change those thoughts so bleak?

Start small - with gratitude each day of the week

But how can I do this when life is so hard?

You make a conscious choice to see the light in the dark

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silence again

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Can I truly transform my heavy heart?

Yes! With desire and will you can start!

I really don’t know if I can

I’ve endured such abuse from violent hands

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how can I ever trust in man?

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This is the challenge many are facing

Born into traumas they are replicating

It seems so impossible to ever escape

Is there even hope left for the human race?

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Tears began rolling down her face

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You must restore your energy within

Set yourself free from all addiction

Gather your strength and use it all to repair

Your broken heart so stuck in despair

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Only you can do this alchemising

Focusing on love instead of despising

Don’t fall into the traps of anger or bitter

Just work hard on getting emotionally fitter

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It’s hard to do and it doesn’t seem fair

But that’s the price of getting there

Thoughts of blame only hold you back

So throw them away along with fear of lack

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Start to believe in abundance and wealth

Which becomes easier as you gain your health

Don’t tell others of your journey to creation

Just keep to yourself as you build this foundation

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one day soon you will wake up in elation

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But what if I keep losing my way?

You kindly tell yourself that’s okay

But I’m already so far behind…

Comparison is the thief of joy in the mind

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I really don’t know, I don’t know if I can

My foundations are heavily set in the sand

So wouldn’t you rather secure them to land?

Create a life that you consciously planned?

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silence ensues

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It’s going to take a monumental effort

To uproot everything - and I’m no expert

What will I do if I fail?

You will dust yourself off, and adjust your sail

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What if I believe and nothing changes?

What if you are tricking me with these exchanges

Well that shame would be on me and not upon you

And what a lame trick from any point of view!

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I don’t think my heart can take another break

You know you’re far stronger than you actually think

I really don’t feel so very strong

Which is why you’re going to be happy to be proven wrong

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silence

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At the end of the day it’s your choice to make

You decide where to gamble your stake

But know that in holding pessimism dear

Is really just you hiding in fear

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And if that’s your choice, I understand

But know that it’s your choice not to rebuild on land

Wouldn’t you rather risk learning your power?

Than to stay here, decaying in cower?

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