Shouldn't Have

I should have kissed you.

I was kicking myself on the train, wondering if you were too, thinking in that moment,

this could be something,

debating if it was too soon to think like that, and it was.

I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up, shouldn't have started the first draft of this poem on the train while I waited for cell service to return, shouldn't have let my guard down so quickly.

I was warned, multiple times, just like always

& I shouldn't have ignored that, but at least I don't have to say

I shouldn't have kissed you.