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I haven’t written about you yet
And maybe that’s because your death triggers me more than I’d like to say
But that’s just the thing,I don’t want to talk about me anyway
I want to talk about everything you were while you stayed
Oh god, thank you for staying for as long as you may
I play Hold On Till May when I’m driving to your grave
As well as I Wish You Were here because I wish it were me
Ryan, you left us with more than I can say
Everyday I think of your smiling face
And I know I haven’t seen you in the past how many years
And I know we had a falling out which brings me to tears
Nothing happened except life and it got the best of us
But oh how I wish it was me, not you, that had had enough
Guilt surrounds me that I wasn’t there
When your demons started preying on a mind that only cared
To make people laugh and feel alive
I wish you would have felt that inside
Because the way I saw people hurt at your funeral
Made me know that your love wasn’t terminal
It will live in our hearts forevermore
But there was so much more to you that we wanted to explore
As you climbed the mountains without any experience
As you played guitar no matter the audience
As you cracked a joke as if you were a comedian
Did you know that you didn’t have to be obedient?
To whatever voice in your head that said that wasn’t worth it
To whatever the matter was that made you think you deserved it
To whatever state of mind that you couldn’t handle
Just know we don’t blame you for wanting out of it
We love you just the same, and your memory won’t be changed
From the go lucky, goofy man you were
In your life, God was served
And one more thing before I go
I want to thank you Ryan for that dream in which you showed
Your silly smirk as you walked away
Direct eye contact making sure I knew you were okay
You’re at peace now, just as you needed
Your dad will be pleased with the man he is re-meeting
You’re a soul I’ll never be forgetting
Ryan you’re the baseball you were always hitting
Everyone wishing you were the one they had in their mitts
…But you were a home run
So we’ll stay loving what we’re missing
We all just hope that you had fun
About the Creator
Ecarg Nosive
I'm a 27 year old writer from Ohio trying to make my passion, my career. Besides writing I enjoy animals, nature, and concerts.
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