Poem: "The Calm Before the Storm"

I've been spending time in an

in-between place lately

like a seasonal standstill

or like how hot boy summer ended

but sweater weather hasn't started

Each morning I splash my face

with handfuls of warm water

reminders of nighttime embraces

though sometimes much hotter

But I'm terrified of catching feelings

because I remember all the things it makes me do

and even though I try to hold it all back

its so much better to be honest with you

I've got goosebumps on every inch of my skin

and with bated breath I quiver within

gambling my feelings in this hotshot lottery

rogue in the sheets feigning camaraderie

I'm gripping the steering wheel so tight

I can see the bones in my knuckles gleam

if I could floor it any faster

the crimes committed will be truer than my dreams

And I want it so badly every morning and night

I'm over here shaking

to be the grey between

all of this black and white

I sit back calmly, just to be chill

even though deep down I'm craving the thrill

of falling so fast I can't hear myself think

let alone catch myself before I fly off the brink

extinct, would be my woes of the old

if intensely the feelings I continue to hold

are set loose and fall out from my lips

but I just hope that moment doesn't hit

I've got the slightest inkling chief, that this isn't it

more matters of myself are completely at risk

see, I've been spending time

in an in-between place lately

and whatever is on the horizon

isn't here yet to take me

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Inspired by having to harbor romantic feelings for someone again, wondering when would be the right time, but trying to keep it inside because you know it won't work.

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