On The Edge
My inner thoughts finally breaking free as I turn into a new me
I am born on the edge.
The people surround me.
They talk about how pretty I am
and bicker over who I look like
- my mother or my father.
They don't notice my dull eyes,
or they choose to ignore it.
I am born. I am on the edge.
I learn to walk on the edge.
The people cheer for me.
They encourage me to run
and they laugh when I fall
- as long as I'm not hurt.
They don't notice I don't speak,
or they choose to ignore it.
I can walk. I am on the edge.
I go to school on the edge.
The people worry for me.
They cry for my departure
and lecture me about safety
- "cover yourself in your friend's blood".
They don't notice my lack of care,
or they choose to ignore it.
I go to school. I am on the edge.
I date on the edge.
The people are happy for me.
They talk about milestones of life
and talk more about safety
- condoms and etcetera.
They don't notice the abuse,
or they choose to ignore it.
I am dating. I am on the edge.
I sit on the edge.
The people are yelling at me.
They are mad for I speak too much
and tell me everything I say is wrong
- even with proof.
They don't notice the reality,
or they choose to ignore it.
I am sitting. I am on the edge.
I stand on the edge.
The people are still mad at me.
I say too many things
and have too many opinions
- like rapists are the problem.
They don't notice the way they're breaking me,
or they choose to ignore it.
I am standing. I am on the edge.
I scream on the edge.
The people are now quiet.
They don't know what to say
and stare at me in horror
- horror for why I would do that.
They don't notice my frustration,
or they choose to ignore it.
I scream. I am on the edge.
I cry on the edge.
The people are speaking again.
They are mad at my outbursts
and for being so loud
- for telling them to be quiet.
They don't notice I don't care,
or they choose to ignore it.
I cry. I am on the edge.
I stare in silence on the edge.
The people are yelling at me again.
They won't stop telling me what to do
and who to be
- no matter what I say.
They don't notice I'm not their property,
or they choose to ignore it.
I stare in silence. I am on the edge.
I jump off the edge.
The people scream in terror.
They cry over my action
and panic at the knowledge
- the knowledge they can't do anything.
They don't notice I'm just freeing myself,
or they choose to ignore it.
I am falling. I am off the edge.
I am in the ground.
The people cry still.
They say they miss me
and they love me
- never saying they're sorry for always blaming me.
They don't notice I don't care now,
or they choose to ignore it.
I am in the ground. I am dead.
I am free.
I am sorry for the pain it has caused some.
But I am not sorry for me
or everyone who harassed me
- everyone who said it was all my fault.
No one is yelling at me now,
or saying I'm exaggerating.
I am free. Free from people like that.
I have grown.
The people hate me for it.
They still mourn who I once was
and continue living with her memory
- never admitting they're the ones who killed her.
They don't notice I am safe now,
or perhaps they just don't care.
I have grown. I have watched my abusers drown.
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Thorn Death
"Here lies a resting place for dark minds."
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Comments (1)
Brilliant, sad, disturbing, real .... Wow. Amazing.