Love

Love

I want a love.

I want to love,

I want to BE love…

I want a love where I don’t have to hold back,

I want a love where I can fall in.

I don’t want to have to rehearse my lines; rehearse what to say, going over them like an audition.

I want it to be natural attraction, but even better - a natural connection.

How do I tell my heart to stop allowing influences from the mind?

For, the heart already knows. Before the mind even knows, during and after (the fact)…

The heart knows.

So why are we in constant mind-heart conflict?

Oh, I want a love that’s healing.

I want a love that forces me to love myself more for it to exist.

I want a love that gives me what I need more than what I may think I want.

A love that is selfish and selfless all at the same time.

Whoever said being selfish was not an act of love? It’s one of the biggest forms of love

- self preservation.

Why would anyone want to wither away in order to be, receive and give love?

Who taught you that you have to set yourself on fire to keep others warm?

Nobody wins.

So if being selfish is an act of preservation, and preservation allows you to give your best; from overflow…

Then being selfish is one of the most selfless things you can do for yourself and others!

I want a love that teaches me all this and more.

A love that rips me open. Not to hurt me, but to expose me to the parts of myself that even I was running from.

I want a love that is a gift.

A gift that keeps on giving.

Replenished continuously by the symbiotic relationship that has been established at its core.

Mutually beneficial.

Not hesitating to dive in, while taking its time simultaneously.

Selfish and selfless.

I want a real love.

Don’t water it down.

Give it to me raw. Unfiltered.

Give me Gods love,

a love that can come only from source.

That’s what I deserve.