It's Not Always My Sickness
I wish people would understand.
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In my own world...
My cave is dark,
the lights don't work,
my room a mess and
the faucet runs cold
on my bare skin.
The stove's flame
entices me as my reflection
burns brightly, my knifes are
no longer sharp and my sickness
in no longer chess game played
Sunday night.
My depression a game
and my bipolar a mockery.
My anxiety, insanity
my trauma a joke
to those who I love.
The walls run red
as my heart aches
like bruised ego.
The soil pulls
me deeper to
an unmarked grave where
my heart continues to
break
The wolves howl my
name, Where my head is a prison
for the insane, a swirl
of psychedelics my tongue
has never touched
because I don't know
how to love.
I feel the devil on my
shoulder whistling
sweetly that death is
sweet
Maybe I have already
tasted death, seen it, laid
with it, kissed it with
the ropes I have hidden,
the purging I have tasted,
oh, the binging I have missed
but my sickness is not
always the problem.
But Heaven
calls me home with
trumpets, saxophones,
and flutes my heart cannot
accept.
My mind is in shambles,
darkness, death, and a tongue
so rough, I have burned
the skin of others.
Tasted cotton candy
depression fill my tears,
the trembling in my
hands, the isolation
in my throat because
my world is so dark
not even the mice
visit.
I can't not love,
because last I checked
depression is my
only friend.
In my world...
my cave is dark,
my lights no longer
work and my smile
a painted memory
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