I Used to Be Better

Health

I'm not being irrational,

I have a disease

you know I don't sleep at all

why won't you treat me?

MENTAL

So my mental state doesnt concern you?

You don't care I wish I was dead?

Sometimes that's the only voice living in my head.

It consumes me and all that I do

I want this to stop I dont want this to be me

But as far as I know, It's all that I can be.

Spark

I got sick, got tired

of being alone in the dark

and now I've finally found something that's a spark.

It's inside of me

I can feel it skin deep

other times it's gone, leaving me alone in that big dark.

Self Doubt

Is there something you see in me?

I can't see anything.

You do?

Are you willing to prove it?

Body Dysmorphia

Well I'm back to feeling ugly

So I hide my skin

I'm back to feeling worthless

breathe out, suck in.

Dreams

Don't put your head down

Keep yourself

and your dreams around