What is this shit?
You wanna sit there and tell me it’s me that’s causing this rift?
I mean, honestly, don’t do this. Own your own issues, don’t let this continue,
don’t mess with my brain and tell me I’m to blame for your insecurities - and let me think it’s me.
Seriously, is this legit? I’m being gaslit? But why? I don’t understand. Things were so good, I thought I knew where we stood, but now you unload on to me,
I just feel so heavy.
Have you even heard? Heard your own words that have hurt? How can this be? I don’t deserve this - not me.
I gave you what you need, and now my heart bleeds because you stabbed me so hard, so sharp, so abruptly,
I think that I must be to blame - but I’m not, god dammit!
So now my heart closes, it won’t open again, not like it’s supposed to, I don’t think it’s gonna mend, not this time - pfft, fuckin’ men,
I mean sorry guys, I don’t mean to imply that it’s all of you, it’s not, I just forgot momentarily,
but really, seriously, what is this shit, to be gaslit?
Far out, now all the doubts creep in, I have to start from scratch again - but I don’t think I can, not this time, the rebuild is too big a climb,
but I gotta try, or do I?
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Jess Boyes
From Melbourne, Australia, I love creative writing and food, particularly a good quality cheese or some sort of dairy.
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Comments (5)
Yes you do have to try!
I think I am permanently gaslit. My father did it to my mother, to me and t seems to permeate all that goodness we crave. I feel your words with much empathy.
I've been gaslit before and it sucks! I hope you're okay 🥺 Sending you lots of love and hugs ❤️
Nothing like getting kicked when you're down! Chin up because you are stronger than any of that! Another excellent piece Jess!
🤔 only when you are ready…. very descriptive of pain of upside relationship.