Father of Grown Sons
National Poetry Month/Poem a Day
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I’m lousy at small talk
Never know what to say
Each week I call both of my grown sons
Eager to talk
With little to say
I give them “the rundown”
My week (I worked a lot)
How Diana’s busy at church
How their youngest brother,
Fares in his junior year in high school
Both of them
Say exactly the same thing
They’ve been busy at work
They haven’t done much else
The story of all of our adulthoods
I scramble for something to say
Eager to extend the conversation
Try to talk about cars with the oldest
About sci fi books and movies with the second one
Wanting to continue the connection
What I want to say
Is how I remember how the oldest
Rode on my shoulders,
Putting his hands over my eyes,
Laughing
His little voice
“Saying peek a boo,”
The game never got old for him
And I
Never tired of playing
And I want to tell my second son,
How he said, “Play with me, Daddy,”
And we’d sit on the floor
And play Hot wheels, or make airplanes,
Or play with Choo Choo Charley
Or how when he was a baby
On colicky nights
I would hold him my arms
Literally walking for hours
So he could sleep
I want to say
I look at their pictures every day
Mind filled with images of them at every age
That I keep the oldest’s Batman on my desk at work
And that Choo Choo Charley is still on my desk at home
I want to say that
Even with distance, even with age
My heart is still bursting with love for them
As full as it was
On the day each was born
I say none of these things.
After awkward silence, I say
“I better let you go.
Have a good week,”
And mutter
A quick
“I love you,”
Hoping they hear
Before
They hang up.
About the Creator
Chuck Etheridge
Novelist, Teacher, Transplanted West Texan, Reluctant Poet
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