Depression Is a Yellow Teapot
And sometimes, recovery is a chipped black cup
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When you’re depressed
you learn to despise the
happy colours
learn to sneer at the sight of yellows
oranges
sky blues
until the little yellow teapot you adore
lies abandoned in the cupboard
for fear you’ll smash it
in disgust.
When you’re depressed
there are two mugs you can use for tea
one for coffee
all black. Just slightly different enough
to give you that all consuming
urge for control.
You can’t control your brain
your life
your work
your fading hope
but you can put two sugars in
a black cup
and arrive at something close
to normal.
When you’re in recovery
you tell yourself that
the bright blue mug is fine
the world doesn’t end
if the Doctor dances
or the depressed girl
uses an item deemed too happy
for today’s assumed misery.
Blue can be black
in the absence of light
and you let the shadows linger
just this once.
When you’re in recovery
you learn to let the shadows linger
until you can wear the purple skirt
the red shirt
the glittery boots
without actually seeing the colours
but it’s a start
it’s enough
it’s going to get better
and it does.
When you’re out of the spiral
you can turn on the light before
your morning tea
can even sit outside
in the golden sun
without a mental monologue
against the yellow of it all.
The first day out of the spiral
you grab for a mug
any mug
no rhyme
no reason
just a hunk of ceramic
and a need for warmth
and the black mug
the coffee one
hits the wall
a little harder than you’d hoped.
When you’re out of the spiral
you can repurpose a
chipped black mug
without the need
to immediately replace it.
And that
more than anything
lets you know you’re okay.
About the Creator
Kylie T
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