Vocal +++ Endorsement

as per the message to my wife, regarding the inevitable "what was I doing??? with my time this morning" conversation.. as I type this from a hotel room rollie desk that I use as a nightstand for when we stay together.

I was doing this.

I say for when we stay together because I share custody of my wife with her former life; the ex-husband and the adopted father (I can relate since I was also adopted) have all the control, and then some. So the narrative was played out, unfolding that I fulfill my role beautifully in anguish.. Sundays and Tuesdays and Thursdays are my "guaranteed" nights that my life allows for us to be together, imposed by the dictates of those who had former rule BEFORE ME. and so this "my life" I speak of is what you'll witness through the lines of these proceedings.. the "my life" that was, and is, supposed to be OUR LIFE, that just got put on pause and pace for the moment foretold.

these stories pay no coincidence, they were meant for me to tell..

SO WITH THAT & without further ado..

welcome to my Vocal +++ channel, where the weight of burdens and boggle-downs come to cease and subside.. where the moment of glory shines from within and gets its proper and adequate provision placed upon the earth THROUGH YOU, THE READER, channeling what it sparks on the inside to break forth. this is where people, and people who mildly forgot how to be people, come to be set free.

this is theHappyMediumlife; you are the one who deems it perfect.

oh, and btw.. Vocal + is 50% off for the year, so instead of buying one or two months, after already using up the 7 day free trial beforehand on an email I haven't used yet, and then quitting and falling out of writing again..

I can now write for A WHOLE YEAR!!!

in order to lock in on my craft, raise funds for vision, add yet another income stream to my process! which means having a home again with my wife sooner, and also our daughter (as I didn't mention I'm a proud step-dad, despite adverse and unwelcoming circumstances).

this is the beginning of my numbered days being counted down for nights I'll sleep in the car EVER AGAIN. this is my chance to BE VOCAL.

plus whatever it is that comes with that ;)

challenges ACCEPTED.

EDIT:

I type this to you from a different hotel room in the same building, discouraged by my loneliness although my wife be in the same room. Here she takes a second shower to avoid the job search we both need to be expressing priority and urgency towards, but though I offer to type out cover letters as we go through her Indeed list of saved jobs, we gain no traction and she wants very little part in the hardship of responsibility, and yet I relate all too well. I've barely ever been able to call myself responsible, if I'm being incredibly honest. I have been a work in progress most all of my life, and I've slipped into favor mainly due to the zeal and diligence of never having anything prior and knowing I could be destined to live and achieve more if only I put the pressure on myself to achieve it and make a pathway for myself ahead unto all that there was waiting on my destiny to acknowledge, accept, and inform me of in the process.

It wasn't that there was nothing for me or that I was nobody, but that I had to discover it on my own what was to unfold for the life that was me. and so here I am typing to you, hoping that my second edit of my first story becomes a hit of some importance enough to pass. I am yearning, hungry yet content, needing for my marriage and my financial uncertainty to settle into a more favorable circumstance, hoping for a better tomorrow.

And so, if you feel so led.. catch that deal on Vocal + for the low low, thanks.

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