When a friend destroys your trust

How do you forgive someone who betrayed your trust? A person you thought was a very close friend, but turned into a snake in the grass? How do you trust someone who had a family member hack your computer? How do you trust someone who continued to act as your friend after they turned you into law enforcement. How do you trust someone who turned you out of their house when it was ten degrees below zero and snowing? Knowing you had no place to go? How do people like this exist in society? All of these questions are true. It happened to me in 2018. Now I am paying a dear price for what this friend has done. She isn't the only one to betray my trust. While I was in jail I requested visits from my pastor. He didn't get the approval from the jail until I had been released. The pastor came to see me after I was released. He gave me one hundred dollars to keep me off the streets. Now he is going to pay my hotel bill until I fly back home to Virginia.

Back to my snake in the grass. After she turned me in, she continued to use me for free and reduced travel for herself and her family. I didn't find out she was the one who turned me in until I had been extradited back to Colorado from Virginia. Why didn't she call me and ask if I was aware of any inappropriate content on my computer that I purchased at a pawn shop. Instead she went directly to the police department and now almost four years later, I have a criminal record. Fifteen years is a long time for someone who is sixty-one to be on probation.

After this person violated my trust I was placed under a mandatory protection order. I was not to have any contact with this person. I was out on bond and she contacted me five times, all of which I refused to answer. I informed my lawyer that the witness for the prosecution was calling and harassing me. I was informed this was a double edged sword, she could call me but I couldn't call her. But as I have asked how do you trust someone again? I had enough trouble trusting before this incident. How do you forgive the unforgiveable? This person has caused me enough aggravation as it is. Thankfully I have a lot of friends that are still standing by me, most of them life long friends. Most of my family is still standing by me and that is a blessing as well.

I no longer trust women, haven't for most of my life. That is why I date men. My boyfriend and I are going to discuss a lot of things when I arrive in Virginia this weekend. I can't wait to see him. That's all I've talked about is him since I've been incarcerated.

I have dealt with some slime balls in jail. I was called grandpa or old timer by all the other inmates. It is a sign of respect. When I was released all of them clapped as I left, because I was going to a place somewhere better than four walls and a locked door.

My former friend hasn't tried to reach out to me since April and I don't want her too. I can no longer be friends with her daughter either which is a pity because she was always kind to me. I avoid the grocery store that her daughter works at because I don't want to run into her mother.

I have to protect myself to keep from going to prison for fifteen years. I have to rely on myself to get me out of this mess.