Spiritual Advancement

For the better part of the last 5 years, I have been working diligently, on becoming the man, that since my youth, I have felt, I wanted to be. In my journey on the path towards spiritual enlightenment, I have learned so much in regards to not only becoming more spiritually adept, but also in managing the mental illness which I was diagnosed with, after my wife passed away.

I have found, that while walking this path, there is in all truth, absolutely no reason, to hold onto things, which prevent us from moving forward, and that includes, in my case, embracing every part of who I am, which means I had to come to terms with the fact I have mental illness, and have used my time, to heal the parts of me, that were rendered broken, after losing my wife. The impact that losing someone you love, more than yourself, can have on a persons mental state, is substantial, and this is not something that simply takes place on rare occurrences.

I found myself in a world that was no longer recognizable when my wife passed away, and for a year after her passing, I went on a path, which at that time, I thought was the pursuit of spiritual strength, which in part, it was. I used substances to help numb the pain that I felt from her loss, and one day I found myself feeling not just lost, but entirely alone, or at least that is how I felt at the time. I proceeded to take more and more substances leading up to the year anniversary of her death, and upon that day came a reckoning. I imbibed more of my medication at that time, than I needed and it led to a complete psychological shattering, which led me to attempt to take my own life.

I had made a promise to my wife that I would never attempt suicide, and in all honesty I never did, but what I did do, was just as bad in my opinion. I held my breath for a length of time, which led me to suffer from hypoxia, in an attempt to leave this world, that I felt was responsible for the pain I felt inside, and that is when my true journey towards healing began. After this incident I was having a conversation with my in laws at that time, and they gave me some advice, which was to seek mental health treatment, which was very subtly woven into the conversation, it was not bluntly stated, but was kindly encouraged, and after much thought, and after coming to the realization, that I was not going to be able to overcome the situation I had currently found myself in, I sought help.

I was taken to a facility on the northern end of the state in which I live, on not just one, but two separate occasions. I found that everything I suffered from, in terms of mental illness, during the course of my life, had come to a head, and it was time to face it head on, no more running, and no more using substances to attempt to numb the pain, because if I was to truly heal from the traumas of my past, I was going to have to feel all the pain which I had been through, for real. I could no longer tolerate masking my pain behind a slew of medications that were designed to do just that.

I attended therapy sessions for the better part of two years, and was also medicated in a way that was most conducive with tackling the issues that I had been facing. I sought through a network of close friends and relatives, opportunities for me to work, and this not only helped me to hone my focus on the things which were truly important, it helped me to be a productive member of society, which was something I had not done for the last number of years. I found myself slowly gaining personal revelations into what I needed to do next, in order to get to the next step of my healing, which led me to research various ways, that were in relation to different frequencies, to help me to heal at a more accelerated, and all encompassing way.

I now work in an industry where I help those who suffer from mental illness, focusing on helping them to heal from their traumas, and mistakes of their past, acting in a way, as a beacon of hope for them. I have gained a lot of wisdom over the course of my journey, and have come to the realization, that if I can overcome, my own shortcomings, in regards to mental illness, and live a life of not just normalcy, but purpose, then I truly believe anyone can, especially those on which the majority of society has all but given up on.

It took me going through hell, to realize that heaven is not just a place, it is a state of mind. We all have trials of fire, we must walk through in order to refine us into the people that we want to become.

We are all capable of amazing things, and we all have vast amounts of potential from which to pull, I implore you that if you suffer from any degree of mental illness, and are finding that the path is becoming harder for you to walk than you are able to bear, seek help, for there is no shame in doing so, it takes greater strength to face your fears, than it does to avoid them.

Brightest Blessings.