Mermaid

Walking the beach needing quietness, stillness feeling the disconnections from life and from self.

Yet that deeper feeling of needing to be one with her strength and life force, the ocean beckons.

Her voice a subtle whisper all around, with every lap of the shore her words bubble out

Listen

Hear

Let go of the reasons that brought you home to me.

Let go, let go you need to free yourself, give it to me.

But being disconnected I didn't hear or feel.

I didn't listen I walked and tried to figure it out with my head. Trying to get into my body to listen to what she needs.

Listen to me listen and hear.

But I breathed and tried to fathom what I needed, with my camera to my eye I began to take photos, snap, snap helping me let go a little more.

Yes, a whisper

A subtle kiss

Yes to this if you need to see I will show you.

As I snapped away taking in the beauty of the clouds and the glorious day, my camera was beginning to annoy me it wasn't focusing, it wasn't letting me take the shots I wanted, grrrr I must have changed the focus point or something what the heck is wrong with this stupid thing.

I turned it off and kept robotically walking but now my mind was on the camera not the beautiful azure blue of the cloudless sky or the smooth water that looked anything but clear.

I turned on my camera again snap, snap random pics it seems to be working.

I looked up and out to the horizon did I see a splash?

A tail perhaps?

Zooming my camera in I saw nothing.

I continued my walk as I slowly molecule by molecule began to ease out of my tension I stopped and asked myself what I needed. The wind began to blow my energy field clear.

Focusing on speaking to the air I asked for wind then I felt a gentle breeze stirring but it was moving my energy.

I began to feel life-force move through me once more for too many weeks my vitality and my life force had not been felt by me, being cut off by a cold and antibiotics had distanced me now I felt what I needed more than ever was to be realigned with my body to breathe the salt in and feel the sand beneath my feet to feel the ocean kiss my skin as I walked on the gentle salty edge.

The salt air and salt water were my therapy. The saltwater will have to wait I didn't bring swimming gear but I can breathe in the salt I walked along that gentle salty edge feeling the salt around my feet and ankles I breathed it in and felt something loosen a little more.

I knew I had to sit just sit on the sand and breath.

Breathing in the salt feeling it relax my lungs, relax my tight throat from coughing I felt my tension begin to run down my spine into the sand.

A flash of knowing why I need this, why beach therapy, the sand is a filter and as I let go let my tension my stress my cold run out of me it is filtered by the sand and the salt before entering the earth.

I wonder if it's the same in the desert and if I will have this deep calming letting go in the desert. Knowing there is a water table deep below the sand that it all gets washed clean.

Gazing out to sea the thought left me, I sat dreaming of nothing just being one with the moment.

A splash!

It is a tail.

I wonder If it's a dolphin or whale?

Splash!

Camera up lens zoomed in a tail.

But it was to small for a whale and didn't look like a dolphin.

Hmm I wonder if it's a Dugong?

As I watched nothing, I was about to get up when I felt a familiar sit still,

Watch

Enjoy

The subtle inner knowing that is always with me giving me guidance when I actually pay attention and listen.

As Iooked out again I saw the tail much closer to shore. At that moment a dugong nose rose out of the water. A moment so precious I knew this was a shift it had to be. The message clear, don't hang on to stress or tension, let the natural magic flow through you cutting it off isn't healthy, and staying disconnected only keeps you sick.

This was nature's medicine let it's magic work for you.

I breathed YES!

I've been cooped up inside to long. The summer is to hot to walk anywhere breathing in stale house air even when the windows are all fully open or worse having to breathe in the air conditioning night after night or get no sleep. Life in the dry tropics with 2 seasons a year doesn't suit everyone it is summer or the equivalent of spring, my body craves colour and seasonal shifts and it's not something that happens on the coast this far north.

I sighed made peace with that thought that feeling and reconnected to the land and the trees.

Soon travel will happen, soon it will be a lifestyle change.

I felt a whisper a subtle voice, the ocean speaking through her lapping waves.

It will be a challenge to be away from me. You need to be on the sea but you need the land the trees, the leaves, colour, seasons, connection and open spaces. You need the earth beneath your feet,

Your water connection runs deep through your lines, you are born of the sea from a very long line.

Sea farmers once then tragedy struck. They gave up that time for the safety of filth and muck, farming and milling and other things lacking passion. They soon forgot about being with me.

Vikings and Norsemen, clansmen alike fished and gathered they sat as you do and listened to wise advice.

They heard me speak as others do not, they know what I say is for their growth and for their love of the salty life.

But this had faded from many of the lines and some completely disappeared, then you heard the whispers and tones.

It echoes through you, you cannot deny it, you feel my presence in your blood every day.

Call up that feeling let it in, let yourself feel the flow through your heart, your limbs, your body, your breath and your soul.

feel me truly within.

You do not need to live on the sea, you do need to feel that rhythm that is me.

I am part of your lifeforce your blood.

I am part of your cells, you cannot deny that call.

I felt all of this in a knowing instance and sighed a deep body yes.

It was true all of it and I deeply knew it to be true as I looked up at the sea to thank her for this truth in my inner sight I could see the mermaid that sat on the back of the dugong who quite literally turned out to not be there either. Both were energy beings and only visible with my sacred inner sight.

I breathed deeply taking in the salt, I breathed in the feeling of salty love and knew the heart connection to be true these beings of energy were deep out at sea sending their vibes through the ocean and the waves. I stood up and walked to the water's edge felt the ocean kiss my feet and ankles and felt her life force run through my body.

We are connected in ways we forget, our ancient ancestors had the knowledge we carry too. But in many of us, it's dormant.

I felt a call to awaken.

Awaken to the inner knowing the deeper connections and insights from the sand the treas the ocean, the rocks, the animals, birds, flowers and especially the sea creatures.

It's time to really begin to breathe.

As I began to walk I felt a small excited joy rushing through my feet the sea once again alive and happy one of hers has come home.

When you tune into yourself your body instinctively knows what it really needs.

Do you need to be on the beach, near the river, sitting under an ancient tree, feel the mud between your toes, feel the cold air,

Do you need the visual colours of seasonal change? The mountains, hiking crystal clear stream. Walking in a forest amongst the elders of the tree world, maybe sitting on a rock face a million years old.

Which one of these calls out to you?

Listen be aware feel. Ask your body what you need.

Listen and hear, feel, see or know the answer it will come to you

But you have to listen, allow it to come through stop blocking it out with the mystery woes.

It's not always a choice, a change you can do on your own, sometimes you need help to learn how to listen and really start to let go.

Find a meditation practice that works for you, some heart coherence, or anchoring in the beauty of a moment in yourself, be in your creative flow, forgiveness practice, movement, breath, photography, anything to shift the stagnant flow.

Let yourself feel again.

I learnt a few things that day, I felt the life force I need to feel I am aware of the cutoff and the stagnation within.

My therapy is walking near the sea, the colours of life and the sounds that greet me, the smells of the fresh salt or morning dew air no matter what I do I need to regularly create a connection to my love of the sea

I need to write and clear the flow, to create and let myself be alive to the connection of the natural magic all around me.

I need to let my seafaring gypsy soul wander and feel free.

What is it you need?

I would love for you to take the time to know.