Dirty Laundry

As much as people stress about the struggle with companionship and their numerous failed attempts at finding “The One” I find myself late at night laying on my twin-sized bed right next to a mountain of unfolded laundry. So I ask myself, am I even ready for that kind of thing? Not the companionship. But just the responsibility of having someone in my circle. As I write this well, I already told you. I’m lying on my twin-sized bed beside a giant mountain of unfolded clothes. What I didn’t mention is that it’s been here for nearly 5 days now. Don’t worry it's clean! Well, at least I think so. After I took my clothes out of the machine I had them in my laundry bag. But then I ran into that problem where I was wearing dirty clothes with no place to them. I use this half-ripped bag hamper hanging from my door as the primary location to keep my dirty clothes. When it’s not available (like it hasn’t been for a few days before I threw all my clothes on my bed. I’m kind of fucked because I no longer have a place to put my dirty clothes. I can probably assume your next question. So then where do you put your dirty clothes in the meantime when you’re being too lazy to put your clothes away? Before I answer that in order to avoid a bit of judgment. I would like to say that I believe in the idea of “out of sight, out of mind.” I am not sure who stated that quote but they are genius and knew exactly what they were talking about.

Whether you are talking about laundry, or getting back a test you performed horribly on so you go ahead and throw it away or even shove all your dirty dishes into the dishwasher. As long as I don't see a problem directly in front of me the problem at least in the moment does not exist. I say all that to say that during the time my hamper is being used to hold my clean clothes I have been shown to throw all my dirty clothes to the bottom of my closet and close the door. Yeah, it’s pretty bad. But I am better now. Instead of doing all that I came to the logical conclusion to simply take all the freshly clean clothes and just plop them on my bed doing that would free up my hamper and boom now I have a place to put my dirty clothes again along with a place to put my clean clothes. But how do you sleep? For starters, I don’t. I guess that’s something else. I am finding ways to procrastinate, but to be honest, it isn’t that hard. I kind of just slide all my clothes to one side of the bed and sleep on the other. Ya know now that I write this out loud it sounds a lot worse than I thought. But I’m going to say it again because it brings me solace at least, the clothes are clean right and it's not like I am keeping the clothing there permanently. They stay there up until like around a week at the most then I get over myself and put them away into their respective drawers they belong to. It’s just this time I feel a lot more conscious of this bad habit I have.

Now what does this have to do with preventing companionship? To be honest, I am not entirely sure. But if I were to draw some off the cuff connection between these ideas and impart some deeper meaning to this rant, tying everything together. I would say that generally speaking, someone who consistently fails to put away their laundry and occasionally sleeps with it by their side cannot be considered appealing it’s like a red flag, a sign of other deeper issues that could occur later on. There’s like this general standard of adult responsibilities I think we all belive people should have as they grow older. Especially when they start investing emotions and time into the whole dating thing. Things they should have down pat before they bring another person into their weird little world ya know? If you don’t meet enough of these standards it's like, get your life in order first then you can focus on trying to find someone. I remember during one of my YouTube spirals some famous old guy who speaks on relationship stuff sometimes. His name is Jordan Peterson. He stated this idea. He was talking mainly to men and it was the concept of making your bed, the idea of taking on some responsibility while you’re single. He believes in creating strong habits, the small things you do every day bring on consistency before partaking in relationship endeavors. I’m not really sure if the dude meant this literally but as you probably already assume I haven’t made my bed in a while, since it’s a little busy being the one-stop shop for my dirty laundry.